Journal #7 Hard decisions

What's up DollieLovers? As you probably already know, I haven't been around as much. My posts on Instagram and YouTube have been slacking. I haven't been keeping up with weekly uploads on YouTube and I'll explain why.

Things have been stressful! If you've read my previous Journal #6 Adulting, it's pretty much more of the same. If you all didn't know I am an adult (Lol!) I'm 28 years old and at times, life really kicks my ass. I never completely give up though. I may take several steps back to regroup, but giving up isn't an option. My latest hurdle is to save money for a vehicle. Of course, having my own car is imperative to keep a job and hunt for new jobs. So that's my main focus right now. As for filming videos, not only am I running out of steam on what to film (Y'all know you are tired of the outfit changing, don't lie!), but I'm always running out of sunlight to film in. I work until 5pm and after 1-1 1/2 hours of traffic the sun is pretty much going down, leaving me with nothing to work with. I am not trying to make excuses, I am just saying what I am up against at the moment. I'd love to some day get a light system going but space is limited for all those large umbrella lamps. *sigh* I don't know...

If you've watched a couple of my recent videos, you've heard me mention that I often think about parting with 1 or 2 of my dolls. This is still an idea on my mind, but I can't commit to anything right now. I love all of my reborn babies! I have finally gotten to to the point where I truly enjoy each doll and don't want to part with any of them. Yet, the idea of having half the money I planned on saving for a car is eating at me. On one hand I feel selfish, but on the other hand, I feel like I've worked hard on my collection and I deserve to keep them all. :(

I'm going to try and do better though.

I miss my reborn doll friends. Meeting up with the girls always seems to renew my interest in reborn dolls.